I really need Jesus and his comfort right NOW!!!?

I am fully of anxiety and worries. I tried reading the Bible and casting my worries on Him and praying and pleading and listening. My heart is so troubled I can't sleep. It is REALLY affecting my work and others who live around me. I eat right, exercise daily and take care of myself. I try to live my life right and treat others the way I want to be treated and it does NOT work. I have no peace. Maybe I am a people pleaser. My heart is broken for the 1st time and it is really rough on me. It's hard to get by especially when you work with the person daily. I have no family or friends to help me get through this because I live far away. I feel so abandoned and alone. I listened to my heart which told me to move alone...for a better opportunity 4 years ago. Ever since the move, I have been anxious and haven't enjoyed being away. When I do find a little peace, it is quickly taken away from me. I feel like I can't even make right decisions with my heart because everytime I do, I end up in misery. I am so scared that I'm messing up that it's affecting me and my decision making capability. I feel that my heart lies to me. Every time I listen to it and do what I feel is right, in the end, I get broken and it doesn't work out. I really need the peace and comfort of Jesus right now. I pray when I get weary, I feel like He is not calming me down. I start to hyperventilate and I panic really really bad. I just want that peace that surpes all understanding. I don't know if I can really trust my heart and listen to it ever again in life. I feel so misled by my heart and prayers. I try to fix it and ask God to be with me and it just doesn't work. I'm really starting to lose faith and it's hard to see that things will get better and truly believe...i.e. That God has a better plan than the one I had. I really need help in my unbelief right now. I feel like I can't keep up in this world and the pace of my surroundings. My heart and my head just don't match and think alike. I choose my heart each time when in reality, I should have used my head. I just feel like God is mad at me or disappointed in me.